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How are you today? Gosh it’s been a while since I've written to you. Truthfully, I've been feeling kind of down lately and couldn’t bare the thought of bringing you down with me so I simply wrote down what I was feeling on paper with the intention of posting it some time. Fortunately I didn’t. Now I get to write to you from a slightly better frame of mind. Life can really throw some bitter lemons in our direction sometimes which can really push a person to either falling or gaining momentum and rising. We’re able. We’re stronger than we know. Most importantly we can and will get through the hurdles life throws our way. You and I. Both of us. All of us. One of the hardest and most beneficial things that I’ve ever learnt would have to be finding the strength to see what my failures are and constantly remind myself of the fact: That they’re stepping stones to something greater. After all without them (failures) we’d never learn how to succeed.  All of us ar...

Hi, how are you all today? Hopefully well. I was having one of those ‘weak’ moments the other day when I googled ‘he left me did he ever love me’. I was feeling pretty wretched at the time. It isn’t one of my usual emotions/feelings yet there you have it. This article called ‘ I’ll be 40 soon and never been in a relationship ’ caught my eye and I ended up reading it. The article itself wasn't so bad though it was the comments (which I read from start to finish) that really caught my eye and the number of votes under them. I had mixed feelings reading them. I was partially surprised yet mostly disappointed at the responses and the ones that got the most votes. I hadn't realised just how many people felt so lonely, given up hope and in some ways believed that they’re entitled to certain things in life. And it probably didn't even scratch the surface of how many people truly feel that way as a whole. If we're 'entitled' to anything in life then wo...

If you've ever read my ‘About me’ page then remember when I’d said I’d share my life journey with you? Well that included the good, bad, ugly and beautiful. Right now tears stream down my face as I feel almost paralysed with fear. Unfortunately instead of going to Africa due to the Ebola virus, I’m moving elsewhere instead. I’m terrified. The unknown always rattles me.For some it's easy though not so much for others. Not many people mention how fear, uncertainty, inability and pressure follow us in our lives despite our sex or age. When the sun comes out and we walk amongst our peers, we remain either stony faced or with resilient smiles intent on moving on in our lives as though everything’s fine despite what may be going on in our daily lives and how we feel about it. Whenever I’m on my own, I finally get to break down and take down all my walls that I put up out of habit. I get to curl into a ball, close my eyes ever so tightly, clench my hands together...

Feelings. Emotions. They are the very things that involuntarily drive us. They have a profound effect on us. I just finished watching a movie called ‘No Reservations’ starring Catherine Zeta Jones, and I have to admit that I’ve watched a number of her movies yet this has got to be one of the best. Even the lead male actor in it is someone I’ve never really enjoyed watching, until this movie. I've yet to come across words that can truly describe how we feel. Words simply don’t do the way that we feel, justice. Have you ever had times when your throat constricts, heart starts pumping, a searing pain erupts in your chest, you want to pass out yet you remain conscious and a feeling of utter dread/sadness/disappointment/fear (whatever rings true for you) descends upon you? If you answered yes, I’d wager you aren't the only one. The way we feel can be so overpowering that a lot of the time we look for different ways to numb it. Feeling it is just way too painful...

corpse putting on an everyday smile before the deathly routine of life When I see the wrongs and atrocities that are so easily dished out among people today, makes me question myself, my humanity and the earth I live on. To clarify; I'm in awe of people who are genuine and make that extra effort to make the world a better place. Whoever you are. People who do good usually aren't the ones who are gushed about the most and so I want to show my deepest gratitude to everyone who's true to their hearts and souls. I first think back to my life, my surroundings and my experiences. I am forced to think of every single mistreatment I have ever witnessed that has pertained to either myself or to the people around me and the justices that have taken place thereafter. And I have to admit that the former is in abundance and the latter, a scarcity. Basically what I’m saying is how many times have you or people you have witnessed been wronged in some form or mann...

I feel really embarrassed typing this, as it’s something I've always wanted to run away from yet have never been able to as it continues to plague me one way or another. And so I want to tell you what I've never ever mentioned to a soul before. In doing so, I must forewarn you that if I swear at any time, it isn't entirely intentional, at least you've been forewarned as it isn't one of my usual traits. My last two posts have been about the person I loved and lost. To officially close this topic, I’m about to indulge what I've never disclosed before. The Most Foolish Thing I've Done Yet I've loved him for over 9 years. Gosh I feel like crying reminding myself of that fact. The irony that I have to admit to you is that we were together for almost a year and a half. Tragic, yes I know. To get to the point, I ended up leaving him after about a year and a half. Yes. I did. Why?! Well why else would a teen do something so obviously foo...

I chose the title ‘ How Do I Move On ’ because I can’t tell you the countless times I've personally searched that title, hoping beyond hopes I’d find the answer.   What’s ‘ EXPECTED ’ Of Us And How That ‘ Fits ’ Into Our Lives You know when your emotions and feelings are adamant on remaining on the same path , never a different route? It can be an irritatingly frustrating thing to have to live with. Expectations: - School. - Uni. - Job. - Marriage. - House. - Kids. - Midlife Crisis; which can be in the form of cheating, doing outrageous things which isn't in line with the person’s normal character, ditching the old routine/life for a new one or a whole number of other things that a person might do. - Retirement. - Coffin Searching. - Or something along those lines… Reality: (mine) - School. - Relocating. - School again. - Loss. - Hospital. - Job. - Slight rebellious phase. - Love. - Heartbreak. - Humiliation. - Limbo. - Soul se...