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18+ Anyone younger please move on to another post, thanks. The older I get the quieter I get. Words no longer come to me. The wheel of life continues spinning irregardless of whether one is on board or not. With it comes this strange sense of this unspoken rule that being older means everything must be alright. No matter what one might experience. There's no complaining about it as that would be inappropriate. Speaking about it is simply taboo. No wonder more and more people are looking for validations and 'go aheads' to how they feel without judgment and more and more are falling into categories of 'depressed' or mental health issues' that sort of makes it 'ok' to go through whatever it is they're going through. I'm writing with the hope of expressing some of what I've bottled up and am unable to let go of or express. Right now I have a small apartment that I rent that's in a safe gated area that's being l...

   I've just realised something. We're all addicted to something or other. If you don't believe me then try this: for one day, actually scratch that, for one HOUR try completely alternating from your usual routine of whatever it is you do, whether it's walking the dog, watching t.v to wind down, going to the gym,  playing a box whether it's an x,  playstation or on the computer for that matter or even reading or sitting on your computer/mobile or any electrical device at all and see how you fare. Tell me if you were able to accomplish it with ease. If you make it that far, then aim for a day, and if you make it then see how you do incorporating it into your lifestyle/routine and switching it up every now and then. Then tell me how long you're able to last for. I have a feeling  that for the majority it isn't long. A lot us can't do it. We've become so dependent that you'll find even considering it for a moment seems horrify...

Hello you, What have you been up to lately and how's life been treating you? Today I'm going to leave you with a short answer that I'd left on Quora with the hopes that they benefit you in some way or other. Here's what I wrote from my experiences: Love without expecting it back . That way whether it’s reciprocated or not won’t affect your expectations of the person. If you feel different compared to others, accept it , love it, own it and do NOT let it control you as it’s what makes you unique and there’s nothing other than awesomeness that comes with that. If you ever have nights where you cry all night, fall asleep crying and wake up so, know that it’s because you’re a person who is passionate, loving and good. For if we never cared we wouldn’t shed a tear . And that’s fine and nothing to feel bad about. When listening to advice, take what’s for you and leave what isn’t . Not every good idea pertains to everyone . Understand that everyone is different ....

Hey, how are you? truthfully? I wonder how your days have been treating you and hope that they've been good. I feel terribly ashamed writing to you today. As I've both good and bad news. The good being I got married and I'm sure you have an idea how that can have both it's highs and lows yet is a beautiful thing in itself. The bad being losing contact with my family and losing my job in the process. The 1st being unplanned and the second carefully thought out. Being a very family orientated person, losing contact with my family has been a major blow that I haven't been able to recover from. Why it's happened is complicated, I've yet to comprehend everything myself really. In regards to my job, after getting married I ended up moving to another city so hence my job move. Now I've been looking for a job for a while which has proven challenging. Putting all technicalities aside, personally things haven't been going so well. Especia...

Hiya my gorgeous readers, how are you all today? Hopefully well..? Right now I'm sitting at my desk in a t-shirt and leggings. I'm shattered from a lack of sleep what with a crazy week and my stomach is bloated as I've drifted away from my usual routine of eating well, on time and the occasional exercise. The consuming of junk and neglect of my sleep routine too seems to be catching up on me now and i feel slightly wretched to say the truth. Not to mention that I'm currently on holiday and it's been a roller coaster. From losing my luggage after an extra trip I've just taken to not having my return ticket a day before I'm meant to fly back and start work, my droopy eyes scream SLEEP! yet time and sense evade me as I have so much to do with no strength nor time to do it and well... I'm here writing to you instead. Because I had this unmistakeable urge to write to you despite it all. I haven't blogged in quite a while and frankly I hav...

Have We Used Up All Our Happy? Sorry Callie, I had to steal that line. Greys Anatomy. Now there's a show I can never get enough of. There's hardly a time I've watched it and not cried...*sigh* Oh well on to happier notes; How are YOU today? Honestly? how are you holding up and how's everything going with you? You're welcome to share in the comment section... Life Gets Hard Sometimes At the time i wrote this, it was early in the morning as I jotted things down in my small notebook. I was sitting on the train next to the window with the sunlight shining through. It was both sunny and cloudy as the rays flitted back and forth through the clouds. I sat pondering what to write to you. Lately I've been constantly stopping and changing. This is my 3rd attempt at writing to you, the last two i never completed simply stopping half way through.  Gosh it's nerve wrecking writing to you sometimes... The truth is that I've been thinking of ru...

Hiya, how are you today? Hopefully well..Lately I've been pondering past events which ended up having me down in the dumps for a bit. Unfortunately I find my emotional healing process long and tediously painful. For some reason I've yet to shake my guilt and feelings of inadequacy that wracks my heart every now & then. Lately I've been having these periods where I feel ridiculously worthless, lacking and unimportant. I despise feeling like that considering they aren't true. Isn't it something how we sometimes feel so negatively even though we needn't feel so? This morning as I sat on the train to work, I couldn't stop my eyes from tearing as all the self-invented knives I'd created, stabbed at my conscience. Thankfully I don't always feel like that and the phases come and go. When I get like that I end up feeling as though my feelings and experiences are all for naught. Meaningless. It eats away at my heart. Mind. Soul. Resolve. ...

How are you today? Gosh it’s been a while since I've written to you. Truthfully, I've been feeling kind of down lately and couldn’t bare the thought of bringing you down with me so I simply wrote down what I was feeling on paper with the intention of posting it some time. Fortunately I didn’t. Now I get to write to you from a slightly better frame of mind. Life can really throw some bitter lemons in our direction sometimes which can really push a person to either falling or gaining momentum and rising. We’re able. We’re stronger than we know. Most importantly we can and will get through the hurdles life throws our way. You and I. Both of us. All of us. One of the hardest and most beneficial things that I’ve ever learnt would have to be finding the strength to see what my failures are and constantly remind myself of the fact: That they’re stepping stones to something greater. After all without them (failures) we’d never learn how to succeed.  All of us ar...

Hi, how are you all today? Hopefully well. I was having one of those ‘weak’ moments the other day when I googled ‘he left me did he ever love me’. I was feeling pretty wretched at the time. It isn’t one of my usual emotions/feelings yet there you have it. This article called ‘ I’ll be 40 soon and never been in a relationship ’ caught my eye and I ended up reading it. The article itself wasn't so bad though it was the comments (which I read from start to finish) that really caught my eye and the number of votes under them. I had mixed feelings reading them. I was partially surprised yet mostly disappointed at the responses and the ones that got the most votes. I hadn't realised just how many people felt so lonely, given up hope and in some ways believed that they’re entitled to certain things in life. And it probably didn't even scratch the surface of how many people truly feel that way as a whole. If we're 'entitled' to anything in life then wo...